My Life Lately…

As I sit here writing with my hot coffee, Girly Girl laying on the couch, the sound of silence pervades the home as I gaze at the endless span of mountains bursting through the three walls of floor to ceiling windows surrounding me.

My current state of Utahn mountainous affairs is quite a stark contrast to 9 straight weeks of quarantining inside with my toddlers and nanny in Los Angeles.

It’s hard to believe how much my life has changed over the past few weeks but let’s start here: I have a boyfriend now.  (That felt strange to type…)

Meanwhile I’m overall more at peace. My neck rarely bothers me, I’m eating more and gaining weight, spending more time outside with my kids, and I’m often told I’m “glowing.” Happiness will do these things I suppose.

Life can really take a quick left turn, can’t it?

I like being in a relationship, I never wanted to get divorced.  I enjoyed being married and I certainly didn’t deserve the unfortunate set of circumstances that helped lead to the demise of my marriage.  But, alas, it ended.  It was a very difficult 6 months.  I had to adjust to my new single life while trying my best to maintain a stable environment for my children while throwing myself into work.  Then COVID hit and, well, everybody’s plans changed.

I worked on myself A LOT.  I did virtual therapy sessions, I prayed a lot, I connected with friends with whom I spiritually align, I did daily group meditations, I wrote positive affirmations on my bathroom mirror, I started running, I started dancing more, I engaged in frequent emotional releases, and I read self-help books.  I forgave and I let go.  When I knew I had worked through my pain to the point where it wouldn’t define me or scar me but instead teach me, I knew I was ready to really date.  I shot for the stars and made a list of every last minute detail of the man I was looking for – my list was pages long – and daily I’d ask God to open my heart to the possibility of loving again.

I got on a couple dating apps and talked about my silly experiences on my podcast, Intimate Knowledge.

Christian and I connected via one of these dating apps and did the whole “quarantine dating” thing with lots of FaceTiming but I never thought it would go anywhere since he lives in Utah and I live in St Louis and work in Los Angeles – but what the hell, it was quarantine and I wasn’t physically seeing anyone anyway… until we did.

After 2 COVID-free tests and much vetting through a close mutual friend, Nancy Anderson, we had the most unusual first date IRL: a masked airport pickup (reading this back makes it sound very, very creepy but I promise it was safe, just strange – similar to life these days). Our first dates were on FaceTime, going on hikes, and pouring our own cocktails.  It wasn’t until weeks into our dating relationship when we finally went to a coffee shop, got a drink at a bar, and ordered a meal at a restaurant – this order felt a little backwards and old-fashioned to us but it also made us feel more deeply connected.

Then all of a sudden it breaks in the tabloids that we are supposedly dating and even in love, etc. 

Ever since I’ve been in the public eye I’ve been married so this newfound attention over my love life was a shock to me.  And Christian, a private citizen who’s accomplished a myriad of fantastic feats in his lifetime (from performing 39 tours in Iraq with his band, to starting, building, and selling companies, to being on SharkTank and getting funding for his current company, Uncharted Supply Co, to running marathons and competing in Ironmans around the world – basically he’s one of the most storied individuals I’ve ever known) – is now known as “Meghan’s boyfriend.”  Yikes, sorry ‘bout that.

Here’s the thing: he wasn’t officially my boyfriend when these stories broke but true to the sickening form I’ve found out about major life events in my life recently, we also found out that we are “in love” via the tabloids.  That was a weird conversation: “So Christian, um, the tabloids say I’m your girlfriend, sooooo, like, ummm, am I?” I MEAN talk about feeling like you’re a prepubescent girl who’s about 3 inches tall with her tail between her legs – NOT COOL, folks!  And can I stress how thankful I am that this whole “boyfriend” thing broke with Christian: someone who could handle the surge of media attention and also someone I truly cherish.  So the answer to that cringeworthy “will you be my boyfriend” question was “YES” followed by a lot of laughs as we reflected on the awesome nature under which this question arose… we felt like we should be on The Bachelor with full glam and cameras surrounding us, not makeup free driving down the open road on the way to Grand Teton National Park.  Those people in the tabloids didn’t feel like “us.”

Despite the disconnect I feel from my “real self” and the “tabloid self” I read about every few days, the real me is really loving my life right now.  My kids are doing great (Aspen can’t wait for school to start again and I’m with her on that one!) and I’m up to my eyeballs in happiness. It’s amazing what can happen when you work on yourself, put intentions into the world, then give it up to the universe. Let’s see what happens.

101 Comments
  1. I’ve been following you since RHOC! Love to see where you are now ❤️ and happy for you!! And you can tell by your photos you have a “glow”!

  2. Can I just say how ding dang happy I am for you . You deserve to be genuinely LOVED . You are wonderful mother and it shows with your kids happiness . You should be PROUD of yourself with all you have been through . And yes … you REALLY do a have a GLOW that shows ❤️

  3. So, so happy for you! Christian looks a far cry better than your douche of an ex! Sorry I know he is your babies Daddy but I call em as I see em! ❤❤❤

  4. So happy for you Megan! You deserve nothing but the best. Sometimes our futures aren’t what we think they are going to be because god has an even better plan for us. I’m thrilled for you and your kiddos.

  5. I too chose to work on myself during quarantine. Made a vision board, read a few books (highly recommend Signs by Laura Lynne), took time for myself that I got so used to putting on the back burner pre-quarantine. Your story gives me hope!
    While doing those things for myself, a far friend has turned into a crush, a deeeep crush. The kind that makes you feel the butterflies from the top of your head down to your toes. We’ve been talking for 3 months now, everyday for the most part. I adore him. I want to become more with him but he lives in Texas and I’m in California. He’s mentioned meeting in the middle (Colorado) to have a trip just us and I’m assuming to see what this is, but no set plans yet. I’m trying to enjoy it and not overthink – trust the universe as some might say but it’s a lot easier said than done. I practice in daily affirmations and meditation here and there. I appreciate your story because it keeps me hopeful.
    I plan to talk with him when we go to Colorado, if not before then, to see what this is… but also just learning to enjoy it, be thankful for where I am in life and continue to work on myself daily.
    Any and all advice welcome! Thank you for sharing yours!

  6. So happy for you! You deserve someone who truly lives and values you. What will you do about the living situation? Woukd you be open to moving if things work out? Do you fly back and forth each weekend? Or are you staying in Utah now?

  7. This was so refreshing and fun to read. I’m so happy for you and applaud all the “work” you put into leaning in to yourself. May I ask which self help books resonated with you?

  8. Meghan I am so glad you found yourself 2 years ago I was in an abusive relationship with an alcoholic
    He was so mean and rude to me he would cut me down to nothing I finally cut him loose and I found myself and when I wasn’t expecting I found someone who adores me I wasn’t looking and he appeared

  9. What a great come back. You are so spirited. I enjoy reading your relatable blogs. I, too, had a husband who cheated. It took me sometime to move past the indiscretions. With a lot of self reflection and having to “grow up”, i had found love again. Great love. Fun love. And he is more of a Dad to my daughter then the ex has been…what a huge bonus.
    My “me stuff”…hot yoga – its so cathartic, spiritual and hell of a workout. Try it a few times…once and twice will leave you thinking “this is horrid”, i promise, hang in there. I have red wine every night. I read in my hammock. I take a walk.
    It sounds like you are well on your way to emotional recovery. Bad days will re-emerge sometimes – dont ignore them but take it by the horns, recognize it, accept it and remember where you are now.
    Stay safe during this coronavirus crazy time.
    I hope this helps some!!!!
    Xo

  10. My story of meeting my boyfriend during quarantine is very similar. I told him yesterday that it’s like I placed an order for a man and the universe sent him to me. At 39 years old and a mother of 2, I never imagined I’d have a long distance boyfriend that I met online during a pandemic, but I’m happy.

  11. You deserve so much happiness!! Keep shining. Keeping living. Keep smiling. And most importantly, keep loving. You’re such an inspiration to not give up when the going gets tough. Many blessings to you! 💞

  12. Hi Meghan,

    I just wanted to tell you that I’m so happy for you. I’ve watched you through the years and I always loved that you were a genuine honest person. I’m glad your moving on. It’s tough with kiddos but worth it!

  13. Meghan,
    This made me cry, I am so happy for you! You deserve all the blessings this life has to offer. You have carried yourself with dignity & grace. Christian is one lucky man, but I’m sure he knows that 😉 🙏🏼🙌🏼✨💫

  14. Meghan,
    I knew you had turned a corner when you started doing your tik toc videos. You are so damn hilarious and relaxed. God Bless you and your babies. Praying for nothing but the best for you!

  15. I have never Posted on a blog before but, had followed your journey.
    I am so happy for you and your kids- you deserve nothing but wonderful.
    I was left at 8 months pregnant- high rush pregnancy and a 4 year old. This was 17
    6 years ago.
    I too worked on myself and 2 years later met my soul mate. We’ve gone through so much and he is my rock
    Thank you for being raw and real

  16. Megan I’m so happy for you! You and your babies deserve love and happiness and welcome to Utah! Congrats and thank you for sharing your story! Once again welcome to our BEUTAHFUL STATE

  17. You are such a strong woman Meghan! I’ve been through divorce (under similar circumstances) and I must say it was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I am now remarried to the most perfect man and couldn’t be happier. You deserve nothing but the best and I want to thank you for sharing your story. You are a true inspiration! ❤️

  18. That’s wonderful! You look so happy! I’m struggling with divorce and the idea of being alone. I was married for almost 31 years but it’s a very toxic relationship. I just pray I can find happiness like you did!

  19. Omg Yes!!! Your authenticity and vulnerability during your journey has helped me during the roughest time. Infidelities and divorce with kids is the worst. Your candor has taught me to accept what is and rise above. The dating world is scary, but doing it wisely is far more rewarding. I divorced and bought my own home for myself and my kids. I’m healthy and healing. Thank you for being so open and genuine

  20. I am so delighted that life is good for you. You deserve all the joy and love coming your way. I have truly enjoyed all your instastories and seeing your babies become toddlers. I am from Ireland and I know you came here some time ago to trace your roots. Please come back but without the housewives lol.
    My ex husband left me folloeing an affair and my two boys werw 5 and 1. Being a single parent was hard. I am now remarried to a wonderful man, we have a daughter. Life definitely brings along true love at just the right time. We have a lovely family, my boys are now 24 and 20, my daughter is 15. Life can be full of challenges but the journey is breath taking. Be happy, enjoy it all, be kind to yourself and surround yourself with peeople who care about you.

  21. Brilliant writing! He fits like a Glove . You’re adorable together and I believe everything happens for the Best reason , he’s more your type 😊and so Natural no facade, xx Happiness always

  22. I loved reading this Meghan. I have followed your story for a while now. I always knew that you were meant to find the one and you found him:). I am excited to watch you build a happy and healthy relationship. It must be so difficult to be a celebrity and have all your stuff out there. But many of us had been in a similar boat and knew there is a rainbow at the end. Glad you found yours. Karen xo

  23. I went to elementary school with Christian and can tell you he has one of the most pure hearts. He comes from an amazing And well rounded and grounded family! Happy to see you both happy. ❤️

  24. I always enjoy reading your blogs. You’re a good writer- passionate and transparent. I felt your pain during the demise of your marriage, and I feel your happiness now. It makes me happy to see you happy. Keep doing the self work, mama.

  25. I’m so happy for you! Love does come when you least expect it. I’m very proud of your self awareness and enjoy immensely following you. I so wish you were still on housewives but you are so beyond that now. Does Christian have children? Has he ever been married? Just curiosity.

  26. Soo happy for you. It didn’t seem like Jim adored you and his past track record should have scared you a little. You are smart and beautiful and so glad you found a great guy. Love is everything! Treasure it and enjoy it!

  27. I love this. Congratulations. I hope you have so much happiness in your life for years to come.
    #oneofmyhousewivefavs

  28. I am so very happy for you! You deserve to be happy and you deserve peace! I can’t imagine going through what you had to go through in the public eye! You’ve got this!

  29. I am so happy for you! You are glowing! Christian just looks like a good,kind,humble man. A definite upgrade!!! Wishing you love,health and happiness!

  30. I could not be happier for you! You deserved so much more than you were given in the past. Best of luck moving forward!

  31. Extraordinarily happy for YOU! You deserve these great things! Keep on living and loving! It looks great on you!

  32. You are glowing. Living your best life and it shows. I totally agree that you must send your intentions I to the universe!

  33. As a twice widowed, 57 year old woman, I have been living vicariously through you and am So Happy for you! I believe in love and pray that you find Earth shattering love with Christian. I mean your boyfriend! Here’s to the summer of love!

  34. Hi Meghan,
    I just wanted to write and say that I’m so happy for you. I thought you were dealt a pretty tough hand and to go through what you have is more than enough for any person to take, but to do it so publicly made my heart heavy for you and your children. Seeing headlines and salacious gossip postings made my stomach churn a little . I didn’t read them, it was a painful reminder that felt very close to my heart – 15 yrs ago i went through a painful and humiliating break up from a long term relationship which, looking back with clarity, was toxic. No children from it thankfully. Fast forward and I have been happily married for 10 yrs to the most wonderful man and we have 2 children together. Waking up and knowing that a toxic cycle was broken and knowing that I healed and my heart was open to trust and love again was everything. I felt like I had “returned”, only this time I was a warrior.

    Anyway, from one woman to another – well done, I’m so happy for you. I wish you inner peace and love and continued strength.

    Tracey x

  35. How do you forgive when you are so hurt??? I cannot let go of the anger therefore I’m not truly moving on!! Helllllllp meeeeeee

  36. This is so awesome! You look so happy and you deserve it! You are doing a great job with your kids too. Keep posting these blogs! I love reading them!

  37. I live in England and split with my partner of 18months week 1 of lockdown. It was incredibly painful . It felt like I was stuck , can’t move it forward , was still in my old life and I missed the good parts of our relationship . I now feel calmer and at peace with myself . Like I can breath. I want to take time but worry about being alone . I’m 44 with a 15 year old daughter. You’re story lifts me … love he positivity and looking forward . I want to have that smile again . Thank you for sharing.

  38. I had bad relationships my whole life was scared to love again, abd didn’t want to love again cause I was lonley but I wanted to love when I was ready . I was ready abd I met up with a old friend that I loved from the day I set eyes on him .but we never really had a relationship fully but for 6 years I thought about him everyday ,, I am now seeing him I am scared to be hurt but ur story helped me be open minded , I need to do like u said don’t let It define me or scar me but teach me , love can come around again thank u u are inspired me , be happy megan

  39. I think you really are glowing! Your eyes have that ‘sparkle’ back now! I couldn’t be more happy for you & Christian. Let’s not forget that’s he is pretty lucky to have found you too! Can’t wait to see what happens in both of your futures. I see many adventures ahead. And isn’t there a Housewives franchise in Utah now?? Hmm…..you just never know where fate takes us! Wishing you the best and continue living your best life! 💞

  40. Life is too short to be unhappy.. Jim was not the ying to your yang… he is cold and not a kind human. You look and seem happy! That’s best for you and your children so move on in joy!

  41. Love your writing and your honesty. Never liked the way your ex husband spoke to you on RHBH. He seemed very dismissive of you and your feelings. Prayers that you find someone that cherishes you and the little ones.

  42. I am super happy for you!! You deserve this 100% ! You’re a phenomenal woman and mom! I will continue to keep you, your family, and Christian in my positive thoughts and prayers. Happiness is a beautiful thing…soak it all in and enjoy every second…!

  43. Your an inspiration!! Keep doing what your doing as you are looking so happy 😀 much love to you and the babies from the UK xxxx

  44. Your life looks and seems real now and happy unlike the life portrayed on Real Housewivrs. I’m glad you found a good person to be with.

  45. Be true to you❣️You’re full of grace and exude class. I enjoy following you and live your independence.

  46. So happy for you! Being happy in life is important and a happy mom makes for a better mom! God wants us to be happy! As Christians we are told life won’t be easy but he wants to be happy! Congrats!

  47. Re: Ghost boy. I believe that opening yourself to mystics opens the door to experiences that we are not meant to venture in. I believe in a spiritual realm. But not all of it is good. Not sure that any of it is good. You may have opened a “portal” which should concern you. Personally I would unengage with mystics and anyone that tries to contact the spiritual world or read your future. Demons do roam this earth and can take the form of any human. I don’t think your an aithiest or you wouldn’t believe you saw a ghost. My advise is to bless your home with a pastor and walk away from the previous practices I have mentioned. Much harm can enter your family life. Scary stuff that shouldn’t be invited into your life. Sorry I sound scary. I wish well for you and yours.

  48. I’ve been interested in following your bounce back in the media and to witness through it how happy you are, clearly . That’s what has made me look take a look at your blog and it really makes me smile – I’d like to think that it could happen for me too. Anything’s possible right?! 🙏🙌 Looking forward to your next post/interlude ⭐️ Big 💗

  49. Good job Meghan. Should be so proud of yourself. Finally found a moreage appropriate alive intelligent man who doesn’t want to silence you at every corner

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